I am not sure if it’s love,if  it’s a crush or if it’s a fling all I know is that I regret throwing what we almost had.I thought I’m over with it,over with him but just hearing his name and seeing him for just 10 seconds (and to top it hindi ko pa sya nakilala agad) made those buried feelings come into life.I know what I did was right,I know choosing my friend over a guy who is one of  the best decision I’ve ever made but how come up until now the idea of what could have been still make my heart ache? I don’t know if it lasted for a month but in such a short period of time he made me feel special,he made me feel like I am wanted,like I am cared for.I know he is a flirt,entertaining her and her but it warms me when I think about how attached he is when it comes to me.Asking his friends if I’m OK and asking me if I would like him to talk to her,if it bugs me and asking me not to worry about her.Now I am blaming myself for what happened,I am blaming myself because I pushed him away,because I ignored him when he was trying to approach me just because I am jealous,yes.I don't want to think that what happened last week was pure coincidence, because it happened twice.I wanna believe that somehow he still remember me,somehow naramdaman din nya yung naramdaman ko when I saw him and somehow he initiated the contact.If only I was brave enough or even mature enough not to run siguro things are different,maybe we are friends or maybe we are more than that,who knows,how I wish i could bring back time.I miss him,I miss the feeling,I miss everything.Can I experience it over again? This time,I promise I’ll make it right. #ThreeYears