Last night I dreamt of you,again.I know it is a complete bullshit to believe that in the future that dream will happen yet somehow I still hope for it.I try to think of reasons why I still feel this way towards you,I mean just by seeing you can trigger such emotion.It’s unfair how you can go like that,like I’m a complete stranger or maybe I really am.I thought I managed to get through you but just a glance on you and then I’m back to zero again,I am always starting over when it comes to you,and I hate it.I hate that this past “that I thought we had” keeps on holding me back,that I keep on thinking that maybe at times I cross your mind too,I hate the whole fact that a part of me can’t let you go.If only I could bring back time I’d definitely try to see things in different way,far from what I see back there with you.I know if you see this you’ll laugh but I want you to know that if only I can do something about this feeling,I am more than willing to do it cause I am really tired,tired of feeling ashamed when you see me,tired of thinking that this whole thing was just my illusion,even from the start.