This empty feeling inside me is too much.This sadness,this fear,this ‘I want to give up” feeling is eating me up.It’s only the 4th day of November yet everything is going wrong,I don’t know how to handle this life anymore,I am really trying my best to be positive,to be strong but still there will come a time na we’ll be tired,and I guess eto na nga yon. I can’t help but to wish na sana di na lang ako nag grow up,sana hindi na lang ako namulat sa “cruel reality” dati I was so carefree,happy go lucky,I can say I really enjoyed my childhood,yung tipong wala akong inaalala,yung everything's fine.I miss those time when whenever Lola would come home from a week of work at Supreme Court ,may cereals,candies,Yakult and Chamito na syang dala and when Lolo would see me eating those he would said “candy na naman”,because being a retired Captain of the Marine he is  strict,he would be mad at me every time he would see me eating candies.I can’t help but to shed a tear,kasi sobrang miss na miss ko na talaga yung dati,Young and Contented,Simple and Happy hindi yung ngayon na sobrang nostalgia,I have all the things that I need and want yet feeling ko kulang pa rin,there’s something na feeling ko wala pa rin saken.I just want this loneliness to be gone.